I remember I wanted to photograph them, the way the red and blue splashed across his cold, emotionless face. But I knew even if my feet could move from the place where they had cemented themselves to the ground and I could run for my camera, I wouldn’t be able to capture that moment.
I had trusted him, I had loved him, and even though my body had changed that summer, he’d made sure to help me hold on to who I was inside, regardless of how the exterior altered.
But then everything changed.
He stole my innocence. He scarred my heart. He took everything I thought I knew about my life and fast-pitched it out the window, shattering the glass that held my world together in the process.
I remember the lights.
The passionate, desperate, hot strikes of red. The harsh, cruel, icy bolts of blue.
They symbolized everything I endured that summer.
And everything I would never face again.
I absolutely love Kandi’s PSU serial, maybe that’s why I wasn’t ready for this book. Where PSU mixes the heavy with the light so easily, this book caused me actual pain. The best pain. This book is emotional and gripping and will have your chest aching with Rhodes’ and Natalie’s weight. I felt everything with them and that’s only possible through amazing writing.
But the heat I felt when Rhodes touched me—when he kissed me—was the best sensation. It was white hot and electrifying. It seared my skin and blazed through every inch of my body. It burned me. It scared me. But I loved it.
Natalie and Rhodes are both beautiful and flawed. Each one is unable to see the beauty in themselves, until they start to see the beauty in each other. Through this summer they spend together Natalie uncovers the inner beauty Rhodes keeps hidden, while he uncovers her external beauty for everyone to see. They start to lean on each other and find themselves trusting each other to help carry their weight.
I think if you’ve ever wondered who you are or who you want to be you’ll completely relate to Natalie and Rhodes. They are completely different people, but in the end, they’re just lost, and together they find a little bit more of themselves.
Natalie is young and naïve and throughout this summer she finds her self-confidence. She realizes that she’s more than people see and she is strong. Everyone believes that Rhodes is worth noting and he believes it himself. He doesn’t think highly of himself at all. When they start to see each other through the other’s eyes, they start to see their true beauty.
He was looking at me as if he had no idea how I could possibly care for him. I stared back wondering how he could be so blind to not see it himself.
I related to Natalie so much, I was always rooting for her. I think if you’ve ever struggled with weight/body image, this will be 100% relatable. While Rhodes helps her achieve her goals, she also starts to see herself in a better light and that’s when she truly discovers that she is strong and can achieve these goals on her own as well.
This book was beautiful and painful. I was crying from go just because I felt so deeply for Natalie when she was getting body shamed by her so called friends. The relationship between Rhodes and Natalie is fully of push and pull and throughout a lot of the story they feel like it could slip through their fingers at any time. This had me on the edge of my seat and loving every moment they had together that much more. Natalie was so convinced that this relationship wouldn’t last that I was constantly reading as if I was waiting for it to be over, waiting for them to break. It was physically painful, in the best possible way.
Kandi started writing back in the 4th grade after reading the first Harry Potter installment. In 6th grade, she wrote and edited her own newspaper and distributed to her classmates. Eventually, the principal caught on and the newspaper was quickly halted, though Kandi tried fighting for her "freedom of press." She took particular interest in writing romance after college, as she has always been a die hard hopeless romantic (like most girls brought up on Disney movies).
When Kandi isn't working or writing, you can find her reading books of all kinds, talking with her extremely vocal cat, and spending time with her friends and family. She enjoys beach days, movie marathons, live music, craft beer and sweet wine – not necessarily in that order.